---After careful consideration, I have decided that I am voluntarily stepping away as this blogs' "unofficial keeper". I try whenever possible to keep this blog alive by posting this and that and it drums up no discussion, so I will no longer be doing so. If someone else wants to step up to try and keep this thing alive, go nuts, but it will no longer be me. I know 99% of you dont agree w/ my political affiliations, but isnt that what makes this nation great? People can get down and dirty with their politics and have at one another and in the end still walk away as friends. I guess that doesnt apply here anymore either.
To me, it feels like OMI has become an elitist organization and I have become the mascot who gets poked fun of when his back is turned. I AM NOT SAYING I FEEL THIS WAY BY EVERYONE, but I am saying I feel it. For those of you that know and care, I am mentally ill. It consumes a decent amount of my minds work and a decent amount of my self worth. Im not looking for sympathy, Im just letting you know I dont run the average 24/7 show here. Im blessed to have a Mother that understands me, an ex wife who is my best friend and a beautiful daughter who understands that her Daddy has a rough time some days, but she'll still run up to me, knock me a kiss and make it all better.
Anyways, Im pretty convinced you guys dont wanna hear about my b.s. anymore, so I just wanted to pass on the word to you other guys that Im no longer gonna be the one who tries to keep this blog alive just because you may feel I have the time as compared to your busy lives that you lead. I know you guys are indeed busy, I believe you and I get that. Hell, I admire some of you for that. But w/ all the appointments and crazy stuff I have going on here I always went out of my way to post to the blog. If you didnt like my politics, Im sorry, but it doesnt make me a bad person, Im just different. If you didnt wanna hear about how happy my Ava makes me, sorry, but shes my daughter and I love her and really enjoy talking about her. If you disagreed over the fact that I will never let a profession dictate how I look or feel, then you should have said something, but thats who I am now. Lifes too short to be a fucking sell out. Thats one of the main reasons that Ive gotten so many tattoos over the years. I enjoy them and they also separate me from people that feel that they have to sell themselves out to make it in life. Thats one of the biggies for me, I started getting inked because I hated everything else.
I thought that this blog was for all of us to post our victories in life, not something Id have to kick and punch and scream at to keep alive.
---Sorry my friends---
Friday, May 01, 2009
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2 comments:
Eric I don’t know how to answer this. Your post is filled with an awful lot of venom. Is this how you really want to treat your brothers?
Scott, its not meant to be venomous at all. I just tried to convey that I didnt wanna be the one who keeps this blog alive anymore. Id love to comment on other peoples entries and sure, Ill step in once in a while and post updates as to whats going on in my life.
Any hardship was meant to be directed at the blog, not you guys.
Im having a rough time right now w/ my illness. I thank God that I have my daughter, becuz without her, I guarantee you, Id harm myself in a permanent way. The fact that my ex appreciates me and my daughter is crazy about me is why I am still alive.
When I go to therapy this coming week, Im going to discuss possible hospitalization with her ( my therapist) and see what she thinks.
Im sorry if it hurt you my dear friend, I didnt mean to. It just felt like everything I have tried to do for the blog as of late has not gotten much attention and I was frustrated.
Im sorry Scott, Im really sick right now.
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