Now I know Im no A+ kind of guy, but I just realized after looking through some photos that I have pretty much remained who I wanted to be and didnt totally get sucked into the bullshit that mostly comes with losing your identity and being an adult who feels they have to destroy their individuality to succeed. But, Im still a diamond in the rough, almost constantly being chipped at, buffed and ready to face The World one day wiser than the last.
I dont win that battle in a lot of cases, but I do like the feelings along the way.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
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Mmmm, refreshing! Nice words E.
Thanks Scott. Yeah it took me years and lots of therapy, but I have finally begun to realize that I didnt have to sell myself out to fit in because of my illness. It took some time to get "me" back but now that Ive gotten to that point again, it feels good.
Even though right now it is too much for me to hold down a regular job, I realized thats not who I am. Im still pretty true to what I believe in. It took a lot of time and compromise because of my illness, but no one or nothing is gonna dictate what I should or shouldnt do in life to be a "success".
A job doesnt do that. A wife doesnt do that and so on. Nothing does that except you and what you see as making leaps and bounds in life to get to being "more stable" again.
I will not compromise my look, my attitude or my beliefs for anyone. Not an employer. Not society. No one.
The reason I have learned to become who I am again is because I hate everything else. People get older and conform their look, their attitude and what they once thought was important so they can fit in the norm.
I want nothing to do with it.
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