Hi Eric. i'm in if everyone else is in. hell i'm in anyway. i still check in here from time to time hoping somebody would post something. thanks Scott for your posts.
ps still happy i got married.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
random thoughts
© Copyright 2006, From The Wilderness Publications, www.fromthewilderness.com. All Rights Reserved. May be reprinted, distributed or posted on an Internet web site for non-profit purposes only.
Cultural diversity is not only humanity’s hallmark of progress, but an insurance policy against extinction as a species. Diversity gives not only cultural and economic riches derived from different perspectives on natural resources and what it means to be human, but options to problem solving that are stifled in a homogenized society. When such a society is organized around economic goals that are measured by profit margins for private gain by powerful elites, where the demands of those who bear cash as the ticket of admission to the marketplace rule, rather than the needs of people, then those who are deprived – and those who have never been part of such a global economy – must necessarily suffer. The genocide of tribal peoples, therefore, is symptomatic of a deep malaise in the world’s metropolises. Indigenous peoples will suffer the most, but humanity as a whole will suffer the loss of some of its memory, not only of a unique knowledge of the natural world, but of its ability to cope with the future in various, diverse ways.
THY WILL BE DONE, The Conquest of the Amazon: Nelson Rockefeller and Evangelism in the Age of Oil, Gerard Colby with Charlotte Dennett
Harper Collins, 1995, p. 685
Cultural diversity is not only humanity’s hallmark of progress, but an insurance policy against extinction as a species. Diversity gives not only cultural and economic riches derived from different perspectives on natural resources and what it means to be human, but options to problem solving that are stifled in a homogenized society. When such a society is organized around economic goals that are measured by profit margins for private gain by powerful elites, where the demands of those who bear cash as the ticket of admission to the marketplace rule, rather than the needs of people, then those who are deprived – and those who have never been part of such a global economy – must necessarily suffer. The genocide of tribal peoples, therefore, is symptomatic of a deep malaise in the world’s metropolises. Indigenous peoples will suffer the most, but humanity as a whole will suffer the loss of some of its memory, not only of a unique knowledge of the natural world, but of its ability to cope with the future in various, diverse ways.
THY WILL BE DONE, The Conquest of the Amazon: Nelson Rockefeller and Evangelism in the Age of Oil, Gerard Colby with Charlotte Dennett
Harper Collins, 1995, p. 685
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
random thoughts
life is only understood backward, but it must be lived forward. -kirkigaerd.
luminous beings are we, not this crude flesh. -yoda
if you strike me down, i'll become more powerful than you can possible imagine. -obi wan
i'll miss him terribly. -steve
luminous beings are we, not this crude flesh. -yoda
if you strike me down, i'll become more powerful than you can possible imagine. -obi wan
i'll miss him terribly. -steve
Friday, August 07, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Far Behind.
---Due to a recent and somewhat upsetting fallout I had w/ another one of our members I have decided to drop out and away from OMI for what its worth. This blog has nearly become a ghost town and that has saddened me also.
I am holding NO animosity toward most OMI members, but like mentioned, due to things going South between me and another Offmen, I feel alone. I would never put you guys on the back burner of my life, regardless how busy I am, because it could all be over within a second. But some things were said to me as of late by an OMI member that just doesnt make sense to me. They left me frustrated, angry and guessing...I also dont believe that its OK to stop discussing life with a long time friend, even if you have lost some common ground because your lives have gone in opposite directions. Thats a load of crap, one of the bigger craptastic lines Ive heard in a while. Id never walk away from one of you if life took us in different directions. Heck, look how it has already and I still consider you guys dear friends even though we may not line up politically, musically and/or socially. True brotherhood goes beyond that stuff.
I know who my real friends are now and yes, that does include a few of you guys for what its worth. Besides that, ya gotta treat a bitch like a bitch and just leave 'em far behind.
Adios Amigos!---
With friends like you, who needs enemies?
you ain't right, you ain't never gonna be,
you're out of the car, I'm afraid you've been declined.
you shake my hand, while you're pissing on my leg
I'm cuttin you loose, I don't need this misery
your soul is toxic, you ain't no friend of mine.
You talk real trash when i'm not around
to build yourself up, you gotta to tear me down.
you'll have to excuse me, i've got better things to do.
you smile through your teeth, you talk out your neck
every chance you get you're gonna stab my back.
your time's run out, i've got nothing left for you..
I'm leaving you far behind.
I'm leaving you far behind.
Stop wasting all of my time.
I'm leaving you far behind.
So I'm pulling out the weeds, i'm taking stock
you can talk the talk, but cant walk the walk
Your narcissistic ways have gotten the best of you.
So I'm leaving you to sink, in all your glory
For you and me it's the end of the story.
Get out of my way, I've got better things to do.
I am holding NO animosity toward most OMI members, but like mentioned, due to things going South between me and another Offmen, I feel alone. I would never put you guys on the back burner of my life, regardless how busy I am, because it could all be over within a second. But some things were said to me as of late by an OMI member that just doesnt make sense to me. They left me frustrated, angry and guessing...I also dont believe that its OK to stop discussing life with a long time friend, even if you have lost some common ground because your lives have gone in opposite directions. Thats a load of crap, one of the bigger craptastic lines Ive heard in a while. Id never walk away from one of you if life took us in different directions. Heck, look how it has already and I still consider you guys dear friends even though we may not line up politically, musically and/or socially. True brotherhood goes beyond that stuff.
I know who my real friends are now and yes, that does include a few of you guys for what its worth. Besides that, ya gotta treat a bitch like a bitch and just leave 'em far behind.
Adios Amigos!---
With friends like you, who needs enemies?
you ain't right, you ain't never gonna be,
you're out of the car, I'm afraid you've been declined.
you shake my hand, while you're pissing on my leg
I'm cuttin you loose, I don't need this misery
your soul is toxic, you ain't no friend of mine.
You talk real trash when i'm not around
to build yourself up, you gotta to tear me down.
you'll have to excuse me, i've got better things to do.
you smile through your teeth, you talk out your neck
every chance you get you're gonna stab my back.
your time's run out, i've got nothing left for you..
I'm leaving you far behind.
I'm leaving you far behind.
Stop wasting all of my time.
I'm leaving you far behind.
So I'm pulling out the weeds, i'm taking stock
you can talk the talk, but cant walk the walk
Your narcissistic ways have gotten the best of you.
So I'm leaving you to sink, in all your glory
For you and me it's the end of the story.
Get out of my way, I've got better things to do.
Friday, June 12, 2009
random thoughts
545 PEOPLE
By Charlie Reese
Politicians are the only people in the world who create problems and then campaign against them.
Have you ever wondered why, if both the Democrats and the Republicans are against deficits, WHY do we have deficits?
Have you ever wondered why, if all the politicians are against inflation and high taxes, WHY do we have inflation and high taxes?
You and I don't propose a federal budget. The president does (although it's not his Constitutionally granted authority).
You and I don't have the Constitutional authority to vote on appropriations. The House of Representatives does.
You and I don't write the tax code, Congress does.
You and I don't set fiscal policy, Congress does.
You and I don't control monetary policy, the Federal Reserve Bank does.
One hundred senators, 435 congressmen, one president, and nine Supreme Court justices 545 human beings out of the 300 million are directly, legally, ethically and individually responsible for the domestic problems that plague this country.
I excluded the members of the Federal Reserve Board because that problem was created by the Congress. In 1913, Congress delegated its Constitutional Duty to provide a sound currency to a federally chartered, but private, central bank.
I excluded all the special interests and lobbyists for a sound reason. They have no legal authority. They have no ability to coerce a senator, a congressman, or a president to do one cotton-picking thing. I don't care if they offer a politician $1 million dollars in cash. The politician has the power to accept or reject it. No matter what the lobbyist promises, it is the legislator's responsibility to determine how he votes.
Those 545 human beings spend much of their energy convincing you that what they did is not their fault. They cooperate in this common con regardless of party.
What separates a politician from a normal human being is an excessive amount of gall. No normal human being would have the gall of a Speaker, who stood up and criticized the President for creating deficits. The president can only propose a budget. He cannot force the Congress to accept it.
The Constitution, which is the supreme law of the land, gives sole responsibility to the House of Representatives for originating and approving appropriations and taxes. Who is the speaker of the House? She is the leader of the majority party. She and fellow House members, not the president, can approve any budget they want. If the president vetoes it, they can pass it over his veto if they agree to.
It seems inconceivable to me that a nation of 300 million can not replace 545 people who stand convicted -- by present facts -- of incompetence and irresponsibility. I can't think of a single domestic problem that is not traceable directly to those 545 people. When you fully grasp the plain truth that 545 people exercise the power of the federal government, then it must follow that what exists is what they want to exist.
If the tax code is unfair, it's because they want it unfair.
If the budget is in the red, it's because they want it in the red.
If the Army & Marines are in IRAQ , it's because they want them in IRAQ.
If they do not receive social security but are on an elite retirement plan not available to the people, it's because they want it that way. There are no insoluble government problems.
Do not let these 545 people shift the blame to bureaucrats, whom they hire and whose jobs they can abolish; to lobbyists, whose gifts and advice they can reject; to regulators, to whom they give the power to regulate and from whom they can take this power. Above all, do not let them con you into the belief that there exists disembodied mystical forces like 'the economy,' 'inflation,' or 'politics' that prevent them from doing what they take an oath to do.
Those 545 people, and they alone, are responsible.
They, and they alone, have the power.
They, and they alone, should be held accountable by the people who are their bosses provided the voters have the gumption to manage their own employees.
We should vote all of them out of office and clean up their mess!
Charlie Reese is a former columnist of the Orlando Sentinel Newspaper .What you do with this article now that you have read it is up to you, though you appear to have several choices.
i found this on Jim Marrs' website
By Charlie Reese
Politicians are the only people in the world who create problems and then campaign against them.
Have you ever wondered why, if both the Democrats and the Republicans are against deficits, WHY do we have deficits?
Have you ever wondered why, if all the politicians are against inflation and high taxes, WHY do we have inflation and high taxes?
You and I don't propose a federal budget. The president does (although it's not his Constitutionally granted authority).
You and I don't have the Constitutional authority to vote on appropriations. The House of Representatives does.
You and I don't write the tax code, Congress does.
You and I don't set fiscal policy, Congress does.
You and I don't control monetary policy, the Federal Reserve Bank does.
One hundred senators, 435 congressmen, one president, and nine Supreme Court justices 545 human beings out of the 300 million are directly, legally, ethically and individually responsible for the domestic problems that plague this country.
I excluded the members of the Federal Reserve Board because that problem was created by the Congress. In 1913, Congress delegated its Constitutional Duty to provide a sound currency to a federally chartered, but private, central bank.
I excluded all the special interests and lobbyists for a sound reason. They have no legal authority. They have no ability to coerce a senator, a congressman, or a president to do one cotton-picking thing. I don't care if they offer a politician $1 million dollars in cash. The politician has the power to accept or reject it. No matter what the lobbyist promises, it is the legislator's responsibility to determine how he votes.
Those 545 human beings spend much of their energy convincing you that what they did is not their fault. They cooperate in this common con regardless of party.
What separates a politician from a normal human being is an excessive amount of gall. No normal human being would have the gall of a Speaker, who stood up and criticized the President for creating deficits. The president can only propose a budget. He cannot force the Congress to accept it.
The Constitution, which is the supreme law of the land, gives sole responsibility to the House of Representatives for originating and approving appropriations and taxes. Who is the speaker of the House? She is the leader of the majority party. She and fellow House members, not the president, can approve any budget they want. If the president vetoes it, they can pass it over his veto if they agree to.
It seems inconceivable to me that a nation of 300 million can not replace 545 people who stand convicted -- by present facts -- of incompetence and irresponsibility. I can't think of a single domestic problem that is not traceable directly to those 545 people. When you fully grasp the plain truth that 545 people exercise the power of the federal government, then it must follow that what exists is what they want to exist.
If the tax code is unfair, it's because they want it unfair.
If the budget is in the red, it's because they want it in the red.
If the Army & Marines are in IRAQ , it's because they want them in IRAQ.
If they do not receive social security but are on an elite retirement plan not available to the people, it's because they want it that way. There are no insoluble government problems.
Do not let these 545 people shift the blame to bureaucrats, whom they hire and whose jobs they can abolish; to lobbyists, whose gifts and advice they can reject; to regulators, to whom they give the power to regulate and from whom they can take this power. Above all, do not let them con you into the belief that there exists disembodied mystical forces like 'the economy,' 'inflation,' or 'politics' that prevent them from doing what they take an oath to do.
Those 545 people, and they alone, are responsible.
They, and they alone, have the power.
They, and they alone, should be held accountable by the people who are their bosses provided the voters have the gumption to manage their own employees.
We should vote all of them out of office and clean up their mess!
Charlie Reese is a former columnist of the Orlando Sentinel Newspaper .What you do with this article now that you have read it is up to you, though you appear to have several choices.
i found this on Jim Marrs' website
Thursday, June 04, 2009
random thoughts
Spoon boy: Do not try and bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead... only try to realize the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Spoon boy: There is no spoon.
Neo: There is no spoon?
Spoon boy: Then you'll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.
Neo: What truth?
Spoon boy: There is no spoon.
Neo: There is no spoon?
Spoon boy: Then you'll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
And so it goes.....
Now I know Im no A+ kind of guy, but I just realized after looking through some photos that I have pretty much remained who I wanted to be and didnt totally get sucked into the bullshit that mostly comes with losing your identity and being an adult who feels they have to destroy their individuality to succeed. But, Im still a diamond in the rough, almost constantly being chipped at, buffed and ready to face The World one day wiser than the last.
I dont win that battle in a lot of cases, but I do like the feelings along the way.
I dont win that battle in a lot of cases, but I do like the feelings along the way.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
This is exactly what I meant and it wasnt meant to come off as an attack on you guys, but here we are and its been a week w/ nothing on the blog. Im busy too, so Im honestly had it with the "Im too busy" excuse, we are all busy. I did a million and one things this past week.
It seems as if we communicate more often and a lot better on Facebook.
The best thing this blog has ever seen was Scott's "28 days" picture project. That was awesome. I wont post screaming political stuff to the blog anymore, I can reach more people with that on Facebook anyways, so you guys dont have to worry about that.
Where the hell did all the Offmen go? M. Martin used to post on a somewhat regular basis. Maslov? Where has he gone to? Its been eons since either of them have shown up on here and it kinda sucks.
Ah well, this blog was great while it lasted.....
Also, all the OMI Moms? I hope you all have a great Mother's Day!!!
It seems as if we communicate more often and a lot better on Facebook.
The best thing this blog has ever seen was Scott's "28 days" picture project. That was awesome. I wont post screaming political stuff to the blog anymore, I can reach more people with that on Facebook anyways, so you guys dont have to worry about that.
Where the hell did all the Offmen go? M. Martin used to post on a somewhat regular basis. Maslov? Where has he gone to? Its been eons since either of them have shown up on here and it kinda sucks.
Ah well, this blog was great while it lasted.....
Also, all the OMI Moms? I hope you all have a great Mother's Day!!!
Friday, May 01, 2009
Alone and Forsaken.
---After careful consideration, I have decided that I am voluntarily stepping away as this blogs' "unofficial keeper". I try whenever possible to keep this blog alive by posting this and that and it drums up no discussion, so I will no longer be doing so. If someone else wants to step up to try and keep this thing alive, go nuts, but it will no longer be me. I know 99% of you dont agree w/ my political affiliations, but isnt that what makes this nation great? People can get down and dirty with their politics and have at one another and in the end still walk away as friends. I guess that doesnt apply here anymore either.
To me, it feels like OMI has become an elitist organization and I have become the mascot who gets poked fun of when his back is turned. I AM NOT SAYING I FEEL THIS WAY BY EVERYONE, but I am saying I feel it. For those of you that know and care, I am mentally ill. It consumes a decent amount of my minds work and a decent amount of my self worth. Im not looking for sympathy, Im just letting you know I dont run the average 24/7 show here. Im blessed to have a Mother that understands me, an ex wife who is my best friend and a beautiful daughter who understands that her Daddy has a rough time some days, but she'll still run up to me, knock me a kiss and make it all better.
Anyways, Im pretty convinced you guys dont wanna hear about my b.s. anymore, so I just wanted to pass on the word to you other guys that Im no longer gonna be the one who tries to keep this blog alive just because you may feel I have the time as compared to your busy lives that you lead. I know you guys are indeed busy, I believe you and I get that. Hell, I admire some of you for that. But w/ all the appointments and crazy stuff I have going on here I always went out of my way to post to the blog. If you didnt like my politics, Im sorry, but it doesnt make me a bad person, Im just different. If you didnt wanna hear about how happy my Ava makes me, sorry, but shes my daughter and I love her and really enjoy talking about her. If you disagreed over the fact that I will never let a profession dictate how I look or feel, then you should have said something, but thats who I am now. Lifes too short to be a fucking sell out. Thats one of the main reasons that Ive gotten so many tattoos over the years. I enjoy them and they also separate me from people that feel that they have to sell themselves out to make it in life. Thats one of the biggies for me, I started getting inked because I hated everything else.
I thought that this blog was for all of us to post our victories in life, not something Id have to kick and punch and scream at to keep alive.
---Sorry my friends---
To me, it feels like OMI has become an elitist organization and I have become the mascot who gets poked fun of when his back is turned. I AM NOT SAYING I FEEL THIS WAY BY EVERYONE, but I am saying I feel it. For those of you that know and care, I am mentally ill. It consumes a decent amount of my minds work and a decent amount of my self worth. Im not looking for sympathy, Im just letting you know I dont run the average 24/7 show here. Im blessed to have a Mother that understands me, an ex wife who is my best friend and a beautiful daughter who understands that her Daddy has a rough time some days, but she'll still run up to me, knock me a kiss and make it all better.
Anyways, Im pretty convinced you guys dont wanna hear about my b.s. anymore, so I just wanted to pass on the word to you other guys that Im no longer gonna be the one who tries to keep this blog alive just because you may feel I have the time as compared to your busy lives that you lead. I know you guys are indeed busy, I believe you and I get that. Hell, I admire some of you for that. But w/ all the appointments and crazy stuff I have going on here I always went out of my way to post to the blog. If you didnt like my politics, Im sorry, but it doesnt make me a bad person, Im just different. If you didnt wanna hear about how happy my Ava makes me, sorry, but shes my daughter and I love her and really enjoy talking about her. If you disagreed over the fact that I will never let a profession dictate how I look or feel, then you should have said something, but thats who I am now. Lifes too short to be a fucking sell out. Thats one of the main reasons that Ive gotten so many tattoos over the years. I enjoy them and they also separate me from people that feel that they have to sell themselves out to make it in life. Thats one of the biggies for me, I started getting inked because I hated everything else.
I thought that this blog was for all of us to post our victories in life, not something Id have to kick and punch and scream at to keep alive.
---Sorry my friends---
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Someone has a birthday today......
---Happy Birthday Scott. I know at times we argue and Im sure we will again sometime, but you are one of like maybe 4 or 5 others that I refer to as a brother.
Youll always be a brother to ne. Have a great B-day!!!!---
Youll always be a brother to ne. Have a great B-day!!!!---
Thursday, April 23, 2009
This is total bad ass!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qvKCzXbEe8s
---If you dont agree, go change your panties, little girl.---
---If you dont agree, go change your panties, little girl.---
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Tea Parties
---I just wanna briefly share with all of you that the tea party protests yesterday were spectacular! I was at the one here in Des Moines and it went over really well.
I will say no more except that it has just begun. Sleep w/ one eye open Washington, you are on the clock and are being watched by countless Americans both from the right and left that are sick and friggin tired of big spending and out of control power moves. Revolution may be brewing a lot sooner than you think. And if this makes me an "extremist" and my heart felt opinions make me look like a "nut" in the Govt. eyes and The Dept. of Homeland Security watchful eyes I say this this....
Fuck you Washington and fuck you DHS! We will not go quietly just because of your scare tactics, this is, after all, still America bitches!---
I will say no more except that it has just begun. Sleep w/ one eye open Washington, you are on the clock and are being watched by countless Americans both from the right and left that are sick and friggin tired of big spending and out of control power moves. Revolution may be brewing a lot sooner than you think. And if this makes me an "extremist" and my heart felt opinions make me look like a "nut" in the Govt. eyes and The Dept. of Homeland Security watchful eyes I say this this....
Fuck you Washington and fuck you DHS! We will not go quietly just because of your scare tactics, this is, after all, still America bitches!---
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
And then there were 3....
---Me thinks this blog is dying. Nobody even comes here anymore except for me, Scott and PJB.
What the hell happened to everyone else? Any ideas?---
What the hell happened to everyone else? Any ideas?---
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Walking at 10 mos. and more blah de blah.
---Scott, the footage of little M. walking was truly a sight that gave me goosebumps, I can remember those days. As Im sure ya know, it gets real interesting from here, especially w/ a lil girl, before we both know it they will be asking to use the car on Friday nights when we are both old and all gray.
Got the ex totally moved into her new pad this past week and its nice. Since it has still been damn chilly here at night, she has been able to enjoy her fireplace a couple times too. Well heck, we are due to get 3-4 inches of FUCKING SNOW on Sunday! What the hell, for a while there, it seemed as if Spring had sprung. All the flowers in our backyard are popped up and are growing at a rapid rate right now, but I dont think the snow should hurt them. The same thing happened last year to them and they turned out fine. Any of you guys got Summer garden plans? My ex even has a small pond in her backyard but I gotta drain it as best I can and then get in there and scoop out all the mushy leaves and other shit from last fall. Once we get that going, we are gonna buy a couple useless goldfish to put in there. No guarantee that they will make it but its for Ava, she'll get a charge outta it.
Its great to see most of you homeboys on Facebook now, undoubtedly the greatest time waster the interwebs has ever had! I had a "falling out" w/ a couple old friends on there and was gonna leave FB because of them, but then I thought, screw that, Im not gonna roll over and die for anyone, FB is big enough for all of us, so I just blocked them instead. It was a sad suprize, I was pretty close to these two characters at one point in my life, but oh well, no big loss. I didnt see them for 15 years until I got sucked into FB, so another 15 aint gonna mean much.
Scotto, Im glad Steve is in town, give him my best. If you would, please have P take a few good pics of you and him to put up on this blog.
The weekend is about here, another awesome round w/ Ava is at hand!!! Get back to me soldiers, I look forward to hearing from you!!!---
Got the ex totally moved into her new pad this past week and its nice. Since it has still been damn chilly here at night, she has been able to enjoy her fireplace a couple times too. Well heck, we are due to get 3-4 inches of FUCKING SNOW on Sunday! What the hell, for a while there, it seemed as if Spring had sprung. All the flowers in our backyard are popped up and are growing at a rapid rate right now, but I dont think the snow should hurt them. The same thing happened last year to them and they turned out fine. Any of you guys got Summer garden plans? My ex even has a small pond in her backyard but I gotta drain it as best I can and then get in there and scoop out all the mushy leaves and other shit from last fall. Once we get that going, we are gonna buy a couple useless goldfish to put in there. No guarantee that they will make it but its for Ava, she'll get a charge outta it.
Its great to see most of you homeboys on Facebook now, undoubtedly the greatest time waster the interwebs has ever had! I had a "falling out" w/ a couple old friends on there and was gonna leave FB because of them, but then I thought, screw that, Im not gonna roll over and die for anyone, FB is big enough for all of us, so I just blocked them instead. It was a sad suprize, I was pretty close to these two characters at one point in my life, but oh well, no big loss. I didnt see them for 15 years until I got sucked into FB, so another 15 aint gonna mean much.
Scotto, Im glad Steve is in town, give him my best. If you would, please have P take a few good pics of you and him to put up on this blog.
The weekend is about here, another awesome round w/ Ava is at hand!!! Get back to me soldiers, I look forward to hearing from you!!!---
Sunday, March 29, 2009
fit to be tied.
---So, I became a Facebook junkie. What? Me addicted to something? Never I tell you! Heh. I will be leaving Facebook this week sometime, once I nail a few more people down and get their email addys.
To make a long and drawn out and dramatic story short, I had gotten in touch w/ an old HS friend that I had dated way back when, prolly around 20 years ago now, I was maybe 16 at best. Well, her hubby noticed that her and I talked a lot and he got all pissy, so I manned up and told this person that Ill walk away from Facebook then, no biggie. Thats what Im doing.
Its funny though. Her effin husband had the nerve to get on her back because we messaged each other maybe once or twice a day while when he has time off from work he talks to a bunch of girls on Facebook that his wife doesnt know.
Sounds like a double standard and hubby is a real bitch!!!
Anywhat, Ill be gone from FB within the next week. Just wanted to give OMI members that use it a heads up.---
To make a long and drawn out and dramatic story short, I had gotten in touch w/ an old HS friend that I had dated way back when, prolly around 20 years ago now, I was maybe 16 at best. Well, her hubby noticed that her and I talked a lot and he got all pissy, so I manned up and told this person that Ill walk away from Facebook then, no biggie. Thats what Im doing.
Its funny though. Her effin husband had the nerve to get on her back because we messaged each other maybe once or twice a day while when he has time off from work he talks to a bunch of girls on Facebook that his wife doesnt know.
Sounds like a double standard and hubby is a real bitch!!!
Anywhat, Ill be gone from FB within the next week. Just wanted to give OMI members that use it a heads up.---
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Alone and forsaken.
---OK, so as most of you brothers know by now, my Step Dad (Dennis) passed in Nov. of 07, about 3 weeks before Turkey Day. It was a pretty rough blow to me, rather hard to deal with and even up to today, I can still struggle with it, I think of him often and he should know, even though I fuck up in a lot of ways, that I miss him terribly.
Well time has gone on and Ive learned to deal w/ it in my own ways. Some are not so good and healthy. I was just talking about this to my therapist this AM. To make a super long and drawn out story short, my Mom has kinda, sorta showed a tiny bit of interest in the Youth Pastor at her church. Several people are aware of it. No one has made a move yet, nor am I saying one will be made at all. The youth pastor is a good man. Hes caring, funny and has a good heart.
I have pissed on my territory already and have put up walls. I agree w/ the fact that you cant put a time limit on how long someone should or shouldnt wait before getting back out there again after your spouse passes away. My Mom is an honorable woman. Shes attractive, smart and very caring.
I just have a very very hard time seeing her with anyone new. It makes me nervous, mad, upset and on edge. I cant expect for her to put her life on hold if she feels its time to "get back out there" or whatever, but it would be very hard for me. Den was here, as my Father during the real hard, shit years of my life with all the drugs, the lies and all that. I dont think I could take another order from a male in that position without laughing in his face.
My therapist and I talked about this this AM while in session and she understood my uneasiness.
My Mom and I are in a unique living situation because I am disabled and cant live on my own. My Mom has said that if they ever started to "date", that certain things would have to be addressed first in order to see where things are gonna go.
Ugh, shit. Ill keep you guys posted.---
Well time has gone on and Ive learned to deal w/ it in my own ways. Some are not so good and healthy. I was just talking about this to my therapist this AM. To make a super long and drawn out story short, my Mom has kinda, sorta showed a tiny bit of interest in the Youth Pastor at her church. Several people are aware of it. No one has made a move yet, nor am I saying one will be made at all. The youth pastor is a good man. Hes caring, funny and has a good heart.
I have pissed on my territory already and have put up walls. I agree w/ the fact that you cant put a time limit on how long someone should or shouldnt wait before getting back out there again after your spouse passes away. My Mom is an honorable woman. Shes attractive, smart and very caring.
I just have a very very hard time seeing her with anyone new. It makes me nervous, mad, upset and on edge. I cant expect for her to put her life on hold if she feels its time to "get back out there" or whatever, but it would be very hard for me. Den was here, as my Father during the real hard, shit years of my life with all the drugs, the lies and all that. I dont think I could take another order from a male in that position without laughing in his face.
My therapist and I talked about this this AM while in session and she understood my uneasiness.
My Mom and I are in a unique living situation because I am disabled and cant live on my own. My Mom has said that if they ever started to "date", that certain things would have to be addressed first in order to see where things are gonna go.
Ugh, shit. Ill keep you guys posted.---
Monday, March 23, 2009
Spring is here!!!
---So yeah, Spring is here and all that. Ive been helping the ex move more and more, its all coming together and looks great. Ava's bedroom is gonna be all done up in dinosaurs just like she wants.
A lot of the old timers from my old high school got together this weekend thanks to FB. The pictures were great to see and thanks to FB I am now in touch with most of them again.
So, whats everyones week looking like? PJB, youve been MIA for a while, whats the haps?---
A lot of the old timers from my old high school got together this weekend thanks to FB. The pictures were great to see and thanks to FB I am now in touch with most of them again.
So, whats everyones week looking like? PJB, youve been MIA for a while, whats the haps?---
Friday, March 20, 2009
Feelings, nothing more than feelings...
---Well, my brothers, I come before you as a very humble man. My ex closed on and started moving into her new home. We got a decent amount of the boxes there and the actual movers (for furniture) come next Wednesday.
I am very happy that my daughter will grow up in a great and cozy little bungalow. Im happy the ex got it too. But deep inside I hurt, because that could have been our first home as a family if I wouldnt have fucked things up so much.
Helping her move some boxes today was truly bittersweet.---
I am very happy that my daughter will grow up in a great and cozy little bungalow. Im happy the ex got it too. But deep inside I hurt, because that could have been our first home as a family if I wouldnt have fucked things up so much.
Helping her move some boxes today was truly bittersweet.---
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