Change is coming, I think

---Well, I think Mr. Obama will be the next bossman of The united States. I have honestly and openly have taken the time to listen to him speak and that SOB is one charismatic man.

I thought Id never hear myself say this, but maybe he IS the right one to do the job next! Now dont get me wrong, Im not gonna be a liberal Democrat, but I am opening up to change. Plus the GOP has no strong front runner as of now. Right now, my support is heading in Romney's direction, but it looks like if he doesnt take the primary in New Hampshire this coming week, he is all but done for.

I still like Rudy and his stance on the war against terror and I think he has a decent proposal for illegals entering our country. I really wish Fred Thompson had entered the race earlier so he could have gained more support and more money, I like him too.

But as long as Hillary continues to make an ass of herself on national TV during debates and rallies, Im one happy mother fucker.

Not just naked pictures

It occurred to me the other day that I would be interested in hearing what one of Americas most vocal proponents of free speech would have to say about our current batch of presidential candidates.
But not really wanting to go to the store to buy Hustler Magazine, i did a little web search and found a fairly entertaining site.
LarryFlynt.com
there is still a little adult content, but some interesting political ramblings as well.

Good Saturday to you all!

---How is everyone?

I am gonna be full of child today and then tomorrow I will be packing. No, we wont know about the house until this coming Monday or Tuesday, but we still gotta keep things moving in the right direction anyways. Its pretty warm here today, gonna get up to around 45, clear skies, I think we have RAIN coming in for Monday. RAIN, not snow. Interesting.

So it looks as if the Dems. have a really strong front runner and thats not even cutting Hillary out of the picture, shes still gonna win a few states here and there if not more. Thats what concerns me, the Republicans have no show of force, no front man to wage war against a strong Democratic leader if the need be during all the primaries and what have you. Sure, we still havent seen what Rudy can do, but I dont have my hopes up. Im still not backing a candidate 100% yet either.

Maybe one of us should email our "Grand Poobah" to see if he is still out there. I aint gonna do it, I do enough for this blog.

Ava's Birthday is Monday, she will be 5. Damn, 5 already! Gonna have to go out tomorrow and grab her up one more gift. Kids gettin way to big way too fast.

Well, thats all from my end. Politics suck, its gonna rain and my kids gettin too big........---

WTF?

---Why does Hillary keep bragging about "35 years" of experience? In what? Politics, um, no, she was married to Bill while he was Gov. and thought she had some political pull while Billy boy was in office.

She needs to come clean and tell the voters what her "35 years" of experience is in.

Agreed?

Mike Huckabee?

---Well, last night was the Caucus. Obama and Mike Huckabee won. I didnt caucus for either of the two. I am very, very curious now as to see how far this will carry for Mr. Obama and I can also guarantee you there are plenty of Eastern states that will have nothing to do with Mr. Huckabee. Obama frightens me because he is almost too perfectly charismatic and acts nothing like the other Democratic candidates and well, Huckabee has no staying power.

You know whos royally pissed off this morning which I think is great? Good 'ole Hillary. Hah, screw that bitch! She can blame her husband for her demise in the state of Iowa. I think someone sees slick ass Willy and they are reminded of what already once was and want something new and different. If I were her, Id send his ass back to New York to sit down and hush up.

My new tattoo work still hasnt fully healed, I still have some scabbing and crazy, mad itching, but its getting there.

Still no word on the house yet guys, Ill let you know as soon as I hear something. We are continuing to pack though.

Scott, hows the journaling going? Hows the shop PJB? Where the hell is everyone else around here, did they just give up on us? Mr. Martin and Maslov used to come in every now and then to chat, but as of late...nothing!

I hope this finds all of you doing good. More later..........---

Awful Joke

Just popping in to post this Joke.

Dear Abby,
My husband is a liar and a cheat. He has cheated on me from the beginning, and, when I confront him, he denies everything. What’s worse, everyone knows that he cheats on me. It is so humiliating.

Also, since he lost his job six years ago, he hasn’t even looked for a new one. All he does all day is smoke cigars, cruise around and bullshit with his buddies while I have to work to pay the bills. Since our daughter went away to college he doesn’t even pretend to like me and hints that I may be a lesbian. What should I do?

Signed: Clueless

Dear Clueless:
Grow up and dump him. Good grief, woman. You don’t need him anymore!
You’re a Senator from New York running for President of the United States.
Act like one.

E, hope you enjoyed it.
XOXO
happy new year

Too cold for comfort!

---Well, today wasnt too bad of a day even though I didnt get out much, its just been so bitter cold here the past couple days it steals away all your motivation. The cold and the snow did remind of one thing early this morning as I stood, glaring out my balcony windows at the snow, with the frigid breeze whipping its way though the large pine trees we have here in the complex.

Scott, do you remember the time me, you and Mike S. went cross country skiing, in what I think was Busse woods? It was pretty dark at the time I remember that and it was literally right after we had gotten nailed by a heavy snowfall. Hell, I must have been 17 or so at the time. It was a lot of fun. We started out from your old house Scott. There was deep snow everywhere. Every winter, that memory always crosses my mind and I smile every time I think about it.

Well, I just dropped an assload of money on a extremely rare Social D. "import" today from Germany, 75 songs over 4 CDs. Cannot wait to get it. All unreleased material.

I will admit, I am very happy the holidays are now officially behind all of us, they were really weird and kinda hard to work through at times without Den not being here. It was really rough on my poor Mom though. Im glad its over. 2008 needs to be good to us...good to us ALL!

Still havent heard anything about the house we want...yet. They said theyd get back to us by week's end. Regardless, we have started packing stuff up already. I HATE packing.

We have the big ass Caucus here tomorrow night, so the spotlight of The Nation is upon Iowa right now. Every darn news station you can think of has a satellite truck set up downtown here. I guess this is where it all begins...the official road to the White House! It will be interesting to see how many of the candidates pack it in after Iowa. I will more than likely go down to caucus headquarters tomorrow night to put in my 2 cents and cast my vote for who I like as of right now, should be exciting!

Hows your week going?

Old journal entries, New Journal entries

Today 01.01.08 I restarted (as planned) my journal program. Since around 1992 (and sporadically before as early as 1985) I have kept a hand written journal. Mostly shit from my gut jotted down before bed. For the entire year of 2007 I refrained, as my writings had become very negative. I hope with ambition that resuming this habit I am able to give to those I write for a better perspective of my hart, and its intentions and motivations along with that optimism that drives me most of the time. On top of that I hope to include a better perspective on where I am. Earlier I took a peek at an old journal of mine and was alarmed to see that it made little sense to my self. See for your self entry dated 10/19/93.

“ Come on give it to me so that I may destroy it with anger is back again where it came from I’m not sure it seems that I am very anxious to flatten every bodies ego’s these days. If I feel there’s wrong doing, I feel I must stomp it out especially hypocrisy, yes that one still haunts me I couldn’t say why even to C sorry I don’t know what to say maybe I need some time alone, maybe a day to get reacquainted with my self, I am not sure. I wonder about my relation ships, babble babble. I can not seem to handle much of my parents. I feel like they are total strangers, I see them and talk to them but it seems most of the time don’t know what to say to them and they don’t know what to say to me… My friends they are cool I can usually talk with them but not always, it seems their own shit is always more important unless they want something. I see many people do it to F and it’s simply not right. But what or how do you say shit like this to people who hurt you with out hurting them or turning them upon you to hurt you more… stupid games, I should quit! Some days I will find my self very jealous of other people just talking and hanging out, not always but most. I rationalize the reality of it is not justifiable or right. But still it happens man that’s getting me and it sure is confusing, maybe it is just me to many little focused pictures all at once. Today’s antidote (written above a drawing of a hand flipping the bird) 10/19/93.”

I think I was living with Frank at the time… but I know nothing else of the day. Any how it was fun to reread and speculate, hope you find it the same. I was just thinking that I should not make the same mistakes in my writings.

Jan. 1st, 2008

---Good Lord its 2008 already, can you believe it. You know the saying, the older you get, the more time flies....

My New Years Eve experience was kinda a let down, but I got over it pretty easily. I was hangin out with my daughter and the ex and around 900 she started getting real tired and she was already pissed off because for some odd reason her DVD player would not let the DVD play correctly. She got The Simpsons movie for Christmas. and we were gonna watch it while the kid did this and that and played. Ava wont sit in front of the TV but for 5 mins. if something is on that she doesnt like. Anyways, I didnt wanna be an asshat and try to force my ex to stay up and 9 nights out of 10, Ava wont go to sleep until Mommy goes anyways, so I just gave up on the idea of ringin in the new year with her and just tucked them into their beds and left. I was disappointed a little, but I got over it cuz I dont really give a damn about stupid New Years anyways. So, I came home and I was asleep by 11. I woke up and looked at my clock and it was 1155, so I got up and waited 5 mins. for the New Year, had a smoke, then fell back to sleep until this AM.

What did you guys end up doing last night?

PJ, did you get to go on your ride this morning with anyone? What did you do Scott?

All these fucking politicians are all but living in Iowa right now cuz the Caucus is in a few days. Its crazy, you wouldnt believe all the campaign ads runnin and how many phone calls Ive gotten from certain political offices looking for support. Ill Caucus, sure, I already know who Im gonna caucus for, so Im all set. My ex's shop is located across the street from where the democratic caucusing will take place.

We are still waiting to hear back from the home owners as to whether we will get that house or not, they said we'd know this week. If we dont land this house, we will just end up in another apartment again. My Mom just wants a fresh start and I totally support her decision because everything here reminds her of Den. Im getting better and better with it, but shes still shakin up quite a bit.

Oh and with the wind chill, it minus 10 here today! Thankfully, the sun is out, I dont wanna know how bad it would be if the sun wasnt out. Im not moving, my kids not moving, my moms not moving and neither is the ex. We are all staying in where its warm.

Well, setting aside all our disagreements about politics, music and other things in life, I hope your 2008 is FULL of love, happiness, prosperity and may your 2008 dreams become 2008 realities!---

2007 Photo Montage and Merry New Year from Scott

Twelve pictures twelve months. I tried to choose images that best represent our lives each month. Although now that I look at it, there is no way any of it will make any sense to you. Best wishes to all of you in the New Year.

Happy Saturday!!

---Well, in a little while, we will be meeting with the home owners to fill out an application and talk to them about renting that house we would love to have. Im pretty anxious. Its not as cold here this AM as I thought it would be, but I just caught a second of the news and could swear that the weather chick said the high temp. on New Years Day is gonna be 12. 12 is no fun. Screw 12. This is when things get hard for me...I cannot stand the heat of summer anymore, BUT 12???? Im sure with the wind chill it will be well below zero.

Have any of you seen the commercial for that new drug that fills the receptors in your brain so that you dont crave nicotine as much? I think it may be something I may try sometime down the road here. Its cool cuz its just a pill and if you mess up and smoke, there is no danger like with the patch. Im really worried cuz Im back down to my ideal weight of 160 and I dont want quitting smoking to make me gain a bunch of weight back.

So, whats this weekend look like for you? It will be child madness for me today down at the ex's shop which annoys the hell out of me. Not the kid, the customers. Ava will take off and start talking to customers in the shop which is fine, shes very out going and rather talkative, I have no problem with that. But its when the customers get down to her level and talk to her is when I get protective. I think "Lady (or Mister), you lay one finger on that kid and I will put you through that plate glass window without giving it a 2nd thought." Thats cool, call me over protective, I dont mind. Ive only had one thing like that happen down there at her shop that was somewhat close to that and Im glad my ex never saw it because it would have freaked her out. Hell, it freaked me out, but it put me in protective mode right away. Im very over protective of my ex and the kid, which I guess is good and bad.

Well boys, have a great weekend, keep warm and remember to hold your friends close but your enemies closer.---

your very own year in review...

---Hi there good lookin, here is some more stuff to think over and talk about as this year comes to a close.

If you had to think of a phrase to sum up your whole year, what would it be?

Did you pick up OR lose any habits in 07?

Who would you like to see play live this next year? Did you see anyone perform this past year? Ministry tix 44 damn dollars, WTF Big Al!

What changed you the most in 07?

Just think these over and get back to bloggin when you get a few mins. cool?---

The year in music...

---So, how many records did you buy this year, a few, a lot? I can say I only bought one album this year, the rest of my music was ripped from peer to peer groups online or given to me as copies from other people I know here.

How about you guys?---

Morning blah de blah

---Hiya fellas! Thanks for being so understanding concerning my bad tastes in jokes. We got the white stuff fallin here right now, about an inch or two, nothing major. I think you guys are due for some snow today too, am I right?

Things here are alright. I like going outside to smoke in the snow, it makes everything so quiet. I grabbed a small little book my ex was reading from her house and I find it to be hysterical. Its called Bad Cat. 244 not-so-pretty kitties and cats gone bad, by Jim Edgar. Its just pics of cats with silly expressions on their faces with really funny captions. Also listed is the cats age and what its personal hobby is. Kinda funny. You know, its one of those little useless bathroom books.

My latest tattoo work is healing up nicely and is itching like a bitch. We still have not heard from the owners of that house we want, they must be really busy or on vacation. The lady said they were gonna be super busy around the holidays and not to fret.

So. What are you boys gonna do for New Years eve? You going out or playin it safe and staying in? Ill be with my kid and the ex. All will be good. I gotta get a good pic of her on this new computer so I can show you guys what she looks like nowadays, shes gettin so big. She'll be 5 in just 10 days.

I noticed Ministry is coming back to Chicago in May or some time around that. 44 damn dollars a ticket! Al must be high. Id never pay that much to see them. There is almost no band Id pay that much to see. Im glad Im not into that kind of music anymore....

So yeah, let me know what you guys are gonna do for New Years eve.....

Next week, this city will be put on the map of the World for a short time with the caucus coming up. It really does get crazy here.---

---UPDATE on new home! The owners just contacted us and we are meeting with them tomorrow morning to fill out an app. and all that good stuff!!!---

my stance

---I took the post down so this doesnt become a 3 ring circus. That joke was originally forwarded to me from one of my other internet pallys.


But yeah, if certain people here find my political views as "offensive" they best just look the other way then cuz I will not stop my own political view points. Ill keep em clean and "racist" free, but Im not gonna stop talkin politics when it comes up.

but when I say politics it goes a lot farther than a bunch of nimrods we vote into office. Over the years now, I have become a very opinionated person. Im not saying Im right nor wrong, but I stand behind my principles. Im pretty strong willed after what Ive gone through in life and I think my morals play a part of that too.

That "joke" I posted here had no racial ramifications, you guys are the ones that were so quick to put a label on it. The joke doesn't state who is being made fun of.

At the very least, I thought Id get a reply asking where it came from and how I was doing, considering things around here are friggin crazy nuts since Den died but nope, play that race card.

You guys wouldn't have given 2 shits if the joke was something like "Hey if you wanna keep the Irish out of your pub, when you see them coming, hide the Guiness, and bring out the PBR.

Im not a racist and I take offense to being called one. One of the closest friends here is Jewish, for example. Plus do you think I want my daughter to grow up in a home with that kind of judge mental energy? Just because Im a right winger doesnt mean Im a hate monger and I would never teach Ava to be one. The poor kids gonna hear it from both sides anyways when shes old enough, Im on the right and the ex is a bleeding heart liberal.

New Years...

---Alright, I have to ask because I have yet in my life to actually know a person who has been able to carry one out, but I figured, what the hell, Ill ask the boys....


What your New Years resolution???

Mine is to quit obsessing over illegal imigration---

All the hype.

---Do you find it annoying that there is all this hype and madness around Christmas? You know, going out to buy gifts, family planing and it all equals out to one day that is over in the blink of an eye. I find all the hype rather annoying. The ONLY reason I get excited about the holidays now is because of my kid.

It was a rough day for both me and my Mom. I didnt think it was gonna be too bad, but then you get done with the gifts and the food and all that stuff and we were brought back to reality that hes' not here anymore. I dont mean to sound dramatic or anything, just gettin a few mis placed feelings from the day off my chest. I feel comfortable explaining my feelings and thoughts here.

The weather was really nice today, around 40 and sunny. We are due for a half inch tomorrow and then Thurs. into Fri. we are supposed to get hit with 5-7 inches of the white stuff. We had my Mom's home made lasagna for dinner tonight, it was delicious.

Do you ever just sit there and space off and wonder how some of our favorite musicians or actors spend their Christmas? I do, well, I did today to take my mind off some stuff. Do you ever think about it? I mean what the hell does Mike Ness get from his wife for Christmas? What about someone like Big Al from Ministry, what the hell would he get for the holiday?I know that Mike Ness has been drug and alcohol free since the mid 80s, so that rules out good booze. Im pretty sure Al has been clean for quite some time too, so that rules out an 8 ball of coke.---

Holiday Wrap up, get it...wrap up, haha......

---So, I expect a full report from you guys over the next couple of days as to what you got for Christmas! I got some Obsession cologne, a couple new Dickies work shirts that I love to wear, but the best gift of all I opened last.

I looked on the wrapper and it said To: Eric From: Den.....It was a book that he noticed I had wanted and he had remembered and bought it for me before he got sick and died. Yeah, very special, lots of tears.

We were gonna go out for breakfast but my Mom was up most of the night due to loneliness, she misses her companion, so we just stayed here and ate.

I got my Mom and cool bracelet, a new top,a new perfume and a few other small things for the kitchen.

Tomorrow we are gonna call the owners of that house we want to see whats up, Ill keep you all posted.

So, what cha get?---

Christmas Eve Stuff....

---Well, its Christmas Eve. I bet a bunch of you guys are runnin around trying to get things done. I really miss Den in a bad way right now and thats why Im blogging right now. Im trying really hard to not break down in front of my Mom because I dont wanna upset her. I know, deep down it wouldnt matter to her if I did, but it matters to me.

So, I shall change the subject...

What do you guys want for Christmas, or what do you think youre gettin?

Its pretty chilly here and we have about 4 inches of the white stuff on the ground right now and we are due for another inch tomorrow, which will make for a white Christmas...perfect.

We are going out to eat tonight, Red Lobster I think and then tomorrow we will go to breakfast then come home to open gifts. Those are 2 of the new traditions we are going to start. I will also be reading the Christmas story from The Bible, which Den did for years and years, its gonna be weird fillin his shoes.

I love you guys, enjoy your holiday, dont eat too much, ah heck, eat a ton and for those of us who have kids runnin around I hope you get to see the magic in their eyes again as they open their gifts. Kids rule, ya know?

OK, gotta run, Love You ALL, have a great day!!---

Happy Holidays!

Merry Chirstmas and Happy New Year, From Scott